Time Flies

April to November - 8 months and no way to express what has happened.  Vacations, school starting again, typical business.

God doesn't change.

Yet we become fickle, lazy, disenchanted...

Strategic abandonment is a concept I have heard about and I need to practice in my life.  Not the type of abandonment that leaves important jobs undone, but the type that gets life back in order and calms things down.

Sometimes I think that I was meant to live like a pioneer.  Challenges around every corner, but no doubt as to where you're going. 

moving on

my final performance of the year is over, spring has come (although you wouldn't know it by the snow falling outside) and i am feeling the joys of my new life without homework.  i finally feel like the house is maintainable and that work is somewhat under control.

there are still lots of questions.  where will our future church home be?  when will we plant our garden? will spring really come?  but one thing i know for sure is that God is good and that he is always with us wherever we go. 

so as i ponder the big questions - and the little ones - i will remember God's goodness and just keep moving on.

facebook adict

i have now become a facebook adict!  two weeks ago i joined facebook and spent the first week catching up with old college friends and just had a wonderful time.  while i am looking for balance in my life, hours on facebook may not make sense.  but it actually helped me to put some things in perspective.

week two of facebook helped me start finding high school friends and i think i have laughed more in the last two weeks than i have in months.  when i think about those times and the fun and the hard times it is interesting the choices that lasted and were important and those that didn't matter at all even though they felt important.

my best friend in high school was joyce nitz.  her mom always used to say "is it of eternal consequence?"  she said it often enough that it would make us mad, but here it is twenty years later and the same question totally applies!

a search for the important

the matrix to the left here makes me feel like the picture in my last post.  but the lovely advice of my friends has given me a focus...a search for the important.  

this has immediately helped my stress level at work go down because it helps me let go of the little things that don't matter and actually catch some of the little things that do.

with God's help i may find - or rather begin to remember -  some of the more important things.

worry

i am starting to reconsider myself.  i keep finding myself being worried about silly things or just feeling overwhelmed and stressed out.  this has caused me to wonder...

have i always been a worry wart?  and if so, does that mean i have been in complete denial about being worried?  and if that is true, does that mean that the happy-go-lucky view i have had of myself for all this time is completely off base and every personality profile i have ever done is completely wrong?

just writing this helps me see that this is completely ludicrous and that maybe the problem is that people that value fun and freedom become worried and stressed when they find themselves in a life of schedules and responsibility.  

only three months til summer and i can go back to my less structured and more spontaneous lifestyle.

Church Search Stage 1

after praying together, i decided that i was ready to branch out.  we had decided to start with the church that is the mother church for ours (Christ community church) and ended up with a surprise visit from the pastor of their partner church downtown (christian fellowship baptist church).

this pastor was really good and it felt healthy to experience something

new.  don't know if this is the best fit for us, but it was a start on what i am beginning to believe may be a long journey.  the girls stayed with us in the service, so they were definite

ly a distraction.  i am curious how if i would have viewed things differently if they had gone to class...anyway, it's a start and i am beginning to pray again and am growing closer to God through this process, so i believe it is the right course of action for us at this time.

i got an iphone!!!!

i am completely, totally and amazingly excited about my iphone.  almost to the point that it is now sucking out my brain power and taking away any desire to be a part of my regular life.  i will soon have to start setting the timer so that i don't find myself wasting entire days playing with my new toy!  oooooooh, it is so fun, though!!!!